Real talk, y’all. Tuesday was rough. LB had been difficult all day. Kobi was acting out. And to be quite frank, I had just about had enough.
At 8 pm, with Sofia in bed, I went into our room, curled up on the bed & read my book. When Amir came in a little while later to chat, I burst into tears.
“I just feel so burned out. I need a day to rest.”
While I’m all for talking about the fun parts of living overseas and being a mom, I know that behind the scenes there is a lot more happening than the snippets that I choose to share in my social media.
So today, I’m bringing y’all along for a glimpse of the not-so-glittery parts of my daily mom/expat life.
| The attempted sleeping-in. HAHA. What is that?! In fact, what is sleep? Sofia has random days where she will sleep straight through the night. However, that doesn’t mean I don’t wake up at 4 am to go check on her. Whether I’m breaking my own sleep or homegirl is up at 3 am wailing for a cuddle/bottle of milk/etc. sleeping in has clearly been a thing of my past life.
| The messy house. Look, I’m all for keeping my house all nice and shiny. BUT, with a dog, a husband, and a 1 year old, the upkeep is insane. Sometimes the laundry will sit on our sofa for a solid week before it’s folded. And you know what? It’s fine. I’m accepting that I will not have a Pinterest perfect house anytime soon. #🤷🏻♀️
| Going at it alone. Amir is a wonderful husband and daddy. He helps where he can, when he can. But with his actual job being outside of the house, on a daily basis I am left taking care of Sofia alone. They say it takes a village to raise a child and I wish I had that. Living overseas means I don’t have family or my group of friends to help me out. No one is making and dropping off meals because I’m sick. I’m not able to run off for some alone time at the drop of a dime, etc. Spending every waking moment + random parts of the night being Mom
kind of seriously takes it out of you. And while I relish being able to be home with Sofia, I do sometimes wish I had more help.
| Limited alone time. Nap time is a big thing around these parts. I love when Sofia gives into her sleep & rests because in essence, it would mean I get some quiet time for myself too. Unfortunately, my “alone time” consists of working & taking care of chores. There’s no magic wand that I know of that can take care of my to-do list, so it’s up to me to find the balance between life & relaxation.
| The hours it takes to get one thing done. You put a task on your to-do list and you know it only takes 30 minutes to get done. Well, that doesn’t happen anymore for me. In fact, if I need to do something for you, I’ll probably say that I’ll get it done within the next 24 hours. It’s not because I’m lazy. But rather, because I know that there will be 100 other things to take care of while I’m doing whatever task for you.
While talking about fun/happy days is a great thing , some days, I think it’s important to acknowledge how hard the days can become.
So for all my Mama friends, I’m sending y’all some intense virtual hugs. For the non-Mamas who feel my stress level, much virtual love for you too! One day at a time, right?