Oh 2016. What a year. We had some really incredible highs including Sofia coming into our lives, Amir & I celebrating six years of marriage, growing closer to our families, and traveling to some of the beautiful places that have been on our wanderlust-list.
And while the life events were amazing, on a personal level, I kinda of…well, struggled.
It’s been a year of transitions for me. Amsterdam became home late last year which was a huge change from the life we had built in Manila. In January, I added the role of ‘Mom’ into my life. In March, I took a leap of faith and joined a start-up in a field that I had never considered before. And while there is so much good that has come from these changes, I noticed that I slowly began to lose who I was.
You see, I spent a good portion of this year focusing on everyone else. What they were doing, how perfect their lives were, how easily they managed every aspect of what they did, etc. And instead of being truly inspired by these people, I became bitter. I told myself I was too busy/tired/insert-any-excuse to be able to be like them. And as it goes, the negativity seeped into me.
My body, both mentally & physically, took a beating, I became more irritable over the tiniest things, and my once very positive outlook on life became a fairly negative outlook.
In short, I became my own worst enemy.
While I’m not one to set resolutions, there is one thing that I have resolved to spend time focusing on this year — and that thing is me.
From today going forward, I am going to do what works for me. I’m going to spend time taking care of myself in order to bring positivity and happiness to my daily life. And, by extension, to the lives of those around me.
On days where I’ve been up all night dealing with an upset babe and therefore, need extra sleep, I’m going to make it a point to lay in bed longer & start my day later. When I don’t want to cook because I’ve had a busy day, I’m going to find a healthier option instead of reaching out for the nearest pizza joint. When I don’t want to partake in an activity, I am going to say ‘no, thank you’ and excuse myself. And when I don’t feel like talking to someone, I’m going to give myself a break from texting, phone conversations, and social media.
Let’s be real, running on empty leads to nothing good. And so, it’s time for a refill for the cup of Myra.
2017 is going to be the year of me.